Silent Memory

This was first developed like 2 to 3 years ago... My first poem which based on nuff knowledge of mine aha.

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I had a dream
It all began when
my fear compelled me to run away from darkness
my grieveness compelled me to run away from myself
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When reality was harsh
Dream would be my escape
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I want to forget the painful event
I want to forget the slapping rejections
I want to forget the broken feeling
but...
What I most wanted is someone to look for me,
when I shut myself out
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Dream has became my wish, my longing...
my answer.
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Your voice made me lookup
Your generous hand made me reach up
Your gentle caress soothed my fear
Your warmth embrace made me feel protected
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I wish it would be endless
I wish it could be clearer
I wish to see you more
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So I searched for any shred that reminded me of you
But...
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'You are what you are.'
Same as for dream
Illusion couldn't replace reality
then...
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Your presence became less each passing sleeps
You were disappearing
I realized the reason you've vanished
is because I've betrayed you
All because of my selfish need for you more.
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I tried to search for you
I did many things
I called, I pleaded, I waited,
Sometime I found you but
when I tried to reach you,
Either you were immediately gone or
it was never really you
You never did appear again.
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I remember vividly the first time you came to me...
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(author's note: when I read back, it's suxxxxx!!! >_<)