Thursday, 5 March 2009

To the Ozzie


This pix was taken on my way back to my campus, from surrey XD! I have my own room~ (that's not the point).
Tonikaku, recently I watched Wizard of Oz (it's the 1930's American kind of gen.)-- in the end, the wizard turned out to be a mad scientist an gave the three (Cowardly Lion, Tin Man, and Scarecrow) medal, certificate some sort, and a pocket watch with a heart shape... it's... funny LoL. Oh!, I managed to watched the second half of the movie, dunno wot happen in the first part of it.

I'm not sure if this is the one which is the first wizard of oz I've seen ( I only remember some scenes, which is the first part of the movie)-- where dorothy ran from a wicked place (is it her aunt's or the orphanage... and she drowned...that...magically arrived in Oz. Ack! and yeah, she had a key which the shape at one end is a letter Z in between the letter O.

So, as you can see from the above pic. That shoes reminded me of dorothy's shoes aha (~_~)... When I shot this one, my flash was on "automatic", so it did a bit of flashes at that time. I think some of the people realize I was taking pixxie, but I choosed to be a thick-faced and avoided any eyes contact..(In the tube apparently)
I think, from now on I'll be taken random pics with my trusted EM-Nok cam!




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Tuesday, 17 February 2009

ILANG

Camne ntah... maen2 nk cr templates br, sume ilang.... &#)!&$!)#&%!!! CURSEEE YOUUUUU BLOGGGGSPOOOTTTTT!!!! TT__TT

Oh well, I'm tired, and I'm not supposed to slack off... so another time (when I'm less stress) I'll.... fix this predicament.


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Everytime I see this..... I feel like blowing up! >(

GAH! ...Step away from this site...

Friday, 6 February 2009

Hen na hito

I'm gonna write this (since I have been telling this to almost everyone, hoping to get some kind of advice but turned out to be like a storytelling, apparently funny at that ::..mostly they'd laughed at me..:: (=____=iii))



We are in the same prog, so I see him come and go sporadically. And I concluded that I Dont Want (Hope I Wont) In Any Way To Get Associate With That Kind Of Person. Dont get me wrong, it's not that he did anything bad or anything, rather the opposite. He (according to my impression) is kind of reaaalllyyy into our prog but in an high-class and elite kind of way. It's not that a bad thing, but that kind of type doesn't particularly appeal to me. Mostly because, based on my experiences, those people eventhough they are sometime nice (there were some that are completely nice and great, but that's not the point), are somewhat high-minded. It could be good or bad, whichever way I don't want to be friendly-nicey-perky with.



So anyway, on the last day before breaks, our group were combined for the last project critz. I was soo nervous (as usual). As I waited for my turn, I went around to see others works, (and I started to feel a bit daunted). I saw a particular design from the other group, I was a bit awestruck (but more to admiring). This work just show how much the artist enjoyed designing it (which I'm a bit envious). And it turned out, it's that dude's work. Geh! (I'm not exaggerating, I was really "what?!" ::.a tiny displeasure shock..:::)....... I'm dooomed. (if you knew me real well, I tend to be a bit competetive toward the people that less appeal to me, heh)


(note: less appeal means those i streomindedly think which arbitrarily I feel a bit decline)

When it was my turn to present (the last one from my group), I was literally praying he didnt sit by and listen (well I didn't see him, so thank god). It went smoothly, in fact the Tutors were really quite impressed by my idea (they gave a lot of terms and title to go with it). The only thing they were disappointed was not be able to see the measured drawing (I didnt actually completed yet the work, but during presentation never ever points out your flaws!) After I became less nervous, I heard (and saw!) him asking what was my concept again (his lec: Obsession within an obsession). (He was there the entire time, and sitting next to the tutors) Aww, mann!! (>///<)
I didnt stick around to wait and listen for his turn, went back quickly with the glad-that-was-over feeling.

Before I knew it new term started, and by strange chance for the group project of Sustainable Construction we end up in the same group. The session, where each group have to gather (atleast meet to know who's who) at a different part of the seating (It's in the lecture hall, where you have the long-stretched chair in stair-like sequence). My group was to meet at the 3rd/4th/5th row of the seating area (anyway, I was at one of the top rows so I can see clearly). "e.he.he.he yeah, he's there."
I'm reluctant (the only seat available was at his left), and what was worst I didn't see any female yet in my group. I rather skip the session, well after my fren saw there was a girl in her group she coaxed (more like command, like how an older sister/mother command) me to go to my group. So I drag myself towards them.

Rambut tebal: are you in the group?

me : yeah n_n (frenly smile------>turned on my charming mode)

...still waiting for more people to come... ('-') (^-^)( _ )( _ )( _ )

Rambut tebal : so how was comic project comin along?

(woah, that surprised me I didnt expected him to know me, let alone remembers my work)

I answered something like it's gud bla bla, and he start asking questions bout lec and results on visual studies etc (out of courtesy, I asked bout him)

Amidst the talking and get to know each member, oiy of nowhere they elected me as the group leader

"Huh?! You can't be serious??..Is it because I am the only girl??"


They chuckled and gave random reasons.
I shook my head adamantly.

Rambut tebal : Dun worry, I'll help too...

(I dun remember when, but he kept on touching my shoulder, like how my lec does)

"wut the heck? womanizer~"LOL

Ufufufufuf, from there we became frenly (for quite a time I called him that in my head, cause he like to touch and when talking to him he would be soooo close)

He likes to ask how my works are goin and he is enthuasism in architecture, purely optimistic in life, he goes by his own way, think the weather in malaysia is similar to india, he genuinely interested in my ideas, his creativity is passionately-driven, possess amiable quality. ^^

I dont know when, but I like tuesday.


Monday, 12 January 2009

I'm sorry

The 3 most important frens in my life rite now, namy, mii, nul-pyon. I love you guys and I'm sorry haven't contact you, I'll always cherish our bonds.

Tuesday, 6 January 2009


Mind yuuuuu!


Looking at my archive I realize I'm reaaaaaallllllyyyyy a lazy person to update stuff -how's that relate? heh-


Anyway, I just came up with a solution=

I'll write according to the number of each months. So it would be like...

January = 1 post, Feb = 2 posts, March = 3 posts and so on.

This would be like "Azam tahun baru" kekekkekekkeekkeke I havent done that as an essay for yearss!
















































































I doubt it would last in a couple of months. (=_______=
)

Tuesday, 9 December 2008

Jisatsu

I'm easily bored.

I can get lost inside of building. But quite good on road.
I walk... compelled by wherever my legs bring me XD

I'm deviously charming ----> according to Shi-chan!
Until now, she's still awed by my charming side (especially towards those who I less like) (^===^)

Apparently I have low self-esteem but not self-pity,

I HATE self-pity!
that's why I'd react strongly if someone pity me
(sympathize--- only a certain range of people would, if not I'll be offended).

Yeah, I'm prideful

I may look weak, but kekekkekekkeke.

You're dangerously in dire position if you think I'm timid and...softy?

I'm a fool but how would you know if I'm not pretending to be one? ufufufuufu

(this is actually when I'm on guard),
if I'm not I really am a fool and simple-minded

I take everything and reflect nothing

(in front of you that is :P)

I would try my hardest to make the pretentious into real scenario

Don't try to pry into my soul! I'll stop running when
I see you stay patiently. (Thank you Shi-chan!)

In a way, I haven't grow up yet! I still can't open up myself freely, in fact I became more cynical
hahahahaha at least I'm thankful to have someone to rely on
(other than mua family).

I guess... it's true... but I can't bring myself to admit,
that's why I'm not moving forward... or is it because
I can't say "It's fine, everything will be alright" until it "is"

I don't know how to react on people kindness
(Kindness = it's not when it is convenient, or...capability.
it's a willingness to put others first, a
sacrifice if you'd like to call but it doesn't
explain the broadness of kindness)

I'm not a... self-satisfied person, that's why I gonna move forward (whether it's fast or slow, I'm going to look back)

I'm very possessive, I won't give the people I care up easily.
Thought I'm not the jealous type XP. So if you try to have
the same affection that I received from the ones I care, I'll
be gladly be your opponent. I must emphasize I'm a sore loser!
XDDD

I said I have a low self-esteem. And a high pride. It's
ridiculously a contradiction.











The answer is quite simple I'm a sore loser!.
I'm not strong but I'm not weak either.

It's not that I want to win but I refused to be a failure.


I dislike analytical person. ----------> random statement

Wednesday, 5 November 2008

Aitai...

Ne...

Ima wa.... anata wa nani shiterun'da?
Ima wa.... nanika wo kimochi darou?

Ne...
Why do you seem to know me but, not fully understand me?

Sore demo, I'm thankful for that...
because that way, I can see your kindness.

...I rely on you too much...

Ne, shiteru?
The first time we're fated to know each other,
I used you.
Even so, you insisted on seeing me as a victim.
why is that?

Back then, I wasn't particularly naive
I was just afraid.
I got the chance and I wanted to use it to beat my past!


Somehow, you managed to climb over the hidden wall I disguised myself from...

The reason how we are now is actually because of you
You have been patient with me the whole way
You continue to accept me until I learn to trust you back

So, it's not that I care for you because you do for me.

Ne...
Shiteru?
You pull me from an addictive friendship to a rare one
But I still protect those memories

Ne...

Mou dame.
ningen sonzai wa mendoukusai...

sou janai kute.

massugu aisuru yuuki o hoshi daiyou ne...
minna-tachi mo kitto...

Hoshi ni jiyuu da.

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